Life Update: Giving Myself Grace
It’s been five months since Cruz has been on Earth, and my plate has been FULL. This little dude keeps me going, and I wouldn’t have it any other way. I haven’t been on this platform in a while because I’ve been getting used to my new normal. But I decided to jump on here today and give you guys a life update while I have approximately 30 minutes before Cruz demands his lunch.
What I’ve Been Up To:
Cruz. Cruz is what I’ve been up to…day and night lol. Also, I have been writing like crazy, just not on this platform. I started back working with Hello Beautiful when Cruz was around 3 months or so. I was eager to get back on my writing grind because I missed it. Most of the time I’m writing with Cruz on my chest, but I’m getting it done (Yay me!). Soon, Cruz will go to a sitter (LORD), and I will be able to get a little more work done.
Also, I’m back on the social scene as well. I’ve been enjoying dates, brunches, weddings, festivals, etc. Having Cruz made me realize that I needed to continue my self-care in a major way so that I could be an even better parent for him. Therefore, I make it my business to still do things that feed my spirit for the sake of my sanity and my child’s wellbeing. Y’all know the empty cup thing doesn’t work for me. I HAVE to stay as full as possible to be the best version of me.
Who I’m Inspired BY:
I’m in inspired by each and every mother I know and don’t know. My hat goes off to all of you ladies. Mothering is not for the faint of heart. However, the journey is so beautiful that I don’t even sweat the challenge. I just do what I have to do.
What I’ve Been Reading:
Children’s books and flash cards are in heavy rotation for me. I’m trying to make sure I do my part in developing this little guy’s brain. I haven’t been able to sit and read a good book like I usually do because when I relax, my eyes tend to close immediately. Audio books have been my friend lately, and the last one I listened to was The Game of Life and How To Play It. This book basically reminded me to use my mind in the most productive way.
What I’ve Learned:
Since having Cruz, I’ve learned that giving myself grace is the best thing I can do for me. I’m not going to get everything right. I’m not going to feel like being a super mom every day. And some days giving 60% will have to do, and that’s okay. My goal is not to be the perfect mother, mate, friend, etc. My goal is to do the best I can, have fun as much fun as I can while doing it, be a blessing, and leave the rest up to God. I have given myself permission to rid my mind of all the impossible ideals that society has placed on mothers, wives, etc. I’m doing Sam. And doing Sam means being kind to myself first, so that I can be the best me for others.
What’s Next:
My goals have been to get a consistent yoga practice going again and check some things off on my to-do list. Other than that, I’m going easy on myself and soaking up these moments while Cruz is still a baby. I want to be as present as possible in this current phase of my life.
My time is up for now, but I will return sooner or later. In the meantime, check me out on Instagram to keep up with my daily/weekly shenanigans.
Peace and Blessings!
- Samjah Iman