Ya’ll can have all of that New Year new me rigmarole. And please keep your resolutions far away from me because they make me itch. Resolutions actually restrict me. I’m constantly evolving, growing, and reinventing myself daily therefore I have nothing to resolve when December 31st comes around. BUT….if for some strange reason I wanted to renege and join our conformed society in making resolutions, I would declare for 2019 that I will not be forcing anything.
If 2018 did nothing else, it showed me that what’s for me will come to me. Last year I did some pushing, pulling, tugging, kicking, etc.….and when it was all said and done, I came out of some situations stressed and mentally tired. Then towards the end of the year I began to really connect with my intuition, control only what I could control, and let go of situations that were out of my reach - and once I started those rituals, the most miraculous things began happening. Circumstances became easier to deal with, my environment became more peaceful, and things began to fall into place.
It reminded me of one of the times I tried to go swimming in an ocean. There I was in my one-piece, high-cut bathing suit and aviator sunglasses, trying to look cute and stay above the waves all at the same time. I fought those waves like nobody’s business and came out with seaweed in my hair and missing sunglasses. After being nearly taken under by a wave, I took a break to go sit in the sand and gather myself. Those waves had gotten the best of me, but I was not giving up. After all, I had some expensive sunglasses I needed to locate. When I got back into the water and the first wave came rolling my way, I immediately braced myself for war. But then something told me just to let go and swim with the current…and that’s what I did. And from then on, I flowed. Wherever the water took me, I went…and it was beautiful and way less stressful. Did I ever find my glasses? Nope. But what I did find was peace with the current – and that in itself was worth those sunglasses.
In 2019, I’m flowing - not forcing. I’m making peace with the current (i.e. life) and letting it take me wherever it wants to take me…..and my only obligation will be to make sure I enjoy the ride.